random ramblings

It's been over a week since I did any serious sculpting. Needless to say I've been emotionally drained. My energy has been misplaced I feel into taking other things too seriously. I do that. I'm a passionate fellow or a dead weight; I'm honestly both extremes. Just have to continually channel my creative energy in this lifetime before it's kaput!

I bought myself a drill which is amazing! Cuts carving out the insides of my piece by a lot. From Target + keyless clutch from Home Depot that accepts any drill bit.

Continuing on with retail therapy, I bought an amazing book I found recommended from my new favorite BJD community woodlandearthstudio.com called POP SCULPTURE. Loving it so far! So much information on molding and casting.

And also I have been wanting this shirt for the longest time and they finally had it in my size at FOREVER 21.

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emotional life: tl;dr

But yea, I've been feeling really under the weather. Work has been a little stressful and it's really not the work because let's be honest what I do is pretty simple and sometimes fails to challenge me completely. It's really how I deal with or not deal with people. So many personalities and mindsets, I often feel misunderstood or that I am not communicating properly. The younger me would hunker down and hermit away but the twenty nine year old me knows better; knows to stand strong. But I am mistaking standing strong with being aggressive with my points. I just don't like being a door mat or anything or being spoken down to but then again a part of me knows that's all more in my head. And my very wise and sometimes suspicious co-worker advised I need to be more Zen so I'm taking their advise. 

Zen, zen, zen, zen. *breaks glass in hands*

I really need to focus my energies on my art. Excuses abound and are taken like tickets used on the procrastination train ride. And at the end of the day that just makes me feel terrible and unfulfilled.

doll talk

Back to doll talk, another reason (excuse) on why I've halted my project because I am stuck on the double ball joints I decided to update/change on my BJD. More articulation, more headache, more planning. And there's also not a lot of tutorials on how to be precise about this so it leaves it to my own wits; that being relying on visual aids on made dolls. It's funny how my new book POP SCULPTURE inherently says not to mistake action figures with dolls. But in my humble opinion they are really the same thing save a few details like using fiber hair and realistic eyes: dolls and action figures are pretty much the same thing. Perhaps the later made for more play abuse than the former.

So yea... stuck on joints. I'll give you an update when I have one. Though, to take note, jollly little easy to mold gnomes have been swimming around in my head asking to be made.